Can you find in your heart to forgive?

Can you find In your heart to forgive?
I don’t know….it depends….
If something happened tragically
And traumatically,
I wouldn’t find in my heart to forgive….
I could forgive myself for being in a situation,
In a position….
I could tell myself that was stupid…why did I do?
But I wouldn’t forgive a person who wants to
Break my heart all the time….
That’s an envious enemy right there…
I cut off, and never look back….
People shouldn’t tell others to persuade to
Go back to the ones who made them cry….
Poor excuses, that’s my so and so..,
All the bull shit…they should respect your decision…
I’m aware of forgiveness is a big thing
However if a person decide not to forgive,
Let it be….leave it alone….
It doesn’t mean he’s or she’s bitter….
If a person is not ready to forgive,
Don’t ever rush,
Let a cold shoulder expand more
Nobody wants to hear give them a chance
Doesn’t mean to hurt you…
Nobody wants to hear that shit…
I have looked at forgiveness in different way
In a strange angle…
Like you use word forgive as a gaslight
And it’s makin me feel uncomfortable…
I don’t like that emotion…
It’s why you should never make people feel bad
Just cos you decided not to forgive…
Sometimes forgiveness isn’t the right thing to do….
Forgiveness is another tactic,
Another tactic to give up more of your power
I don’t see anyone talkin about that a lot…
The only thing you can do is to forgive yourself
For being in harm’s way…for not givin the peace you deserve….
And if you decide to forgive your enemies, that’s on you….
You think you can be a bigger person to reach
Out someone who has been crude to you
Go ahead and do that….
But you can also be a bigger person not to forgive
And give them dose of medicine…
Cos there’s no trust anymore, bond is broken…
May think it’s childish, however you don’t play
With your boundaries….
And yes you can forgive and not forget…..
For me, if someone crushed my soul into million pieces,
I might not wanna forgive…
I might not wanna sad tales and lame excuses why…
Do I find in my heart to forgive?
I don’t know….
Shock has me in a chokehold…..
Confusion is so hazy…
And don’t bring god into this, either
I’m not a religious person….
I might shut that person out,
And never talk to him or her again….

💯©️ Kai C. 8-26-24