What if my iPad was taken away
And all my poems were erased forever,
Cos I write too much truth....
Like it's another scenario 
And I imagine myself 
Livin in a group home
And one of the staffs was readin my poems 
About racism and black people...
Next thing I know 
Their actions of denial have proved my point....

And they might tell a group home manager 
That I wrote "hate speech" poetry...
Somehow they would find ways to shut my writings off 
And told me not to write it ever again....
They would punish me and take my phone away 
Maybe call my family cos I was in the wrong 
For critical thinkin...I didn't know I could be punished 
For expressin my blackness....

Remember this is all a scenario, 
It never happened....
I could imagine in a situation where I was shock 
Without a voice....
Imagine being in trouble by a group home staff
For writin poems about racism....
For being a poetess who is a critical thinker and observer.....
And I'm being punished for sharin poems and have important discussions?
Also it's ableism...not only that they took my masterpieces away
They would encourage me not to write anymore...

They would try to get me go back to sleep
They would try to teach me a lesson
They would get me some children's books on racism
And listen to I Have a dream speech by Martin Luther King Jr.

Yes this scenario hurts my feelings
But I imagine a poet or poetess who lives in a
Group home sharin the work of art to one of the staffs
With a topic she or he is so compassionate about....

And the staff got triggered by a poem..by a title...
Is it the tone itself, the stern voice itself?
Cos My soul got angry for people who have bad experiences
And I empathize...especially for being black....
And it could be well known that we don't talk about racism
Around here.....yet we can talk about ableism....
Cos people with disabilities deal with it in everyday basis....
What about being black, too?
Black staffs and black people with special needs have to deal
With racism, even the latinos, Chinese, Arabs etc....

I'm just sayin.....

Again this is a scenario.....
Would I be reportin to the hr or just a manager?
I'm puttin myself in a client shoes livin in a group home
And I didn't do anythin wrong....
I was sharin my poems to certain people who want to
Read....all of a sudden
They got offended....
They don't like that...
So they sent me to the office
Or have a meeting
They said my iPad is taken away
My poems got erased
My artwork has been burned
And they call my family
And say I was being racist....
I would cry
I wouldn't know what to say
Or what to do...
I wouldn't bring myself to tell my family
That the group home got rid of my creativity
Cos I share from the heart...thinkin things would get worse
Though my family could be suspicious
Askin where are all your art go...

I never live in a group home before....
I never had those situations like that...
And I don't wanna be where
I did nothin wrong...
And the lesson would be
Like don't share your pieces with a certain person
Cos you never know she or he can use that against you
He or she would weaponize the power to tell
Someone on you.....
And get the results....
Gettin kicked out of the group home
Or get your art burned....

What would you do in that scenario?

I always got scenarios in my head...
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