A forever black love

I want a forever black love...
Will I ever get it?
I don't know...

Maybe cos

I push it away
To the point that I'm afraid
Or that I force somethin to be mine

Like those modern day women...

Maybe there's no such thing
As forever black love not for me...
Maybe I'm not meant to be with a black man....

Though at the same time
It's possible to be with someone who you love
For a long time..and I've seen it in my household...

I'm supposed to be with a black man
And he's supposed to be with me, a black woman....
And we want to put it into that work...
So we could grow old as an elderly happy couple...

I want a black man who said this is my wife, my girlfriend
Kai and she loves writin me love Poems....and i love her...
There's no other women like her...she's with me she belongs
To me...she's my beautiful poetess...

And all the stars would sustain in my dark brown eyes....
And I would twinkle when he looks my way....
I wanna act like those teens in high school where
We go crushin on each other....
I want people to be like go get a room where we be touchy-feely on
Each other....
I don't flirt with other guys, just the love of my life....

I lay down thinkin to myself
Do I deserve a forever black love?
The kind that keeps me shy
That keeps me warm
How it doesn't break my heart?
And he will always chase me when he's already have me....
Or am I fantasizin a Hollywood classic romance film?
Like Disney?

I think I am....
Cos how am I goin to find someone who
Loves me, too? Who wants to hold my hand
And write poems everywhere he is...
I don't know if there's such a person...

Who's affectionate...who's givin me
A lot of attention...
I want someone to talk to...
I want someone to go on dates with me
And I could make him a sandwich...

I want a forever black love
I want a black man a king
His smooth melanin poppin
I want a forever black love
That doesn't involve breakups...
We will have fights and makeup fast hard sex....

Would he hold me in his arms
All the time?
Do I expect a lot?
I don't like to admit but honestly yes I do..

I watched black couples
Groovin away in their own rhythm
Thinkin I have a black man who loves me too
Wouldn't mind dancin with me...

And don't come over here
With that why love gotta be black?
Cos black love is needed in the black community
More than ever...
Black love is revolutionized
Black love is beautiful
And white supremacy does fear....
And if white supremacy doesn't exist,
I'm still goin to be with my black man
Cos he deserves to be loved
Especially by a black woman....

🤎✊🏿💯©️ Kai C. 1-21-23

I can’t sleep ❤️