If I were “racist”
In public speakin
And I have to represent
A community, I’d lose
My benefits….kinda the same thing
With black celebrities,
They ain’t allowed to speak
About racism…they could speak
White version of it….
Remember, black people can’t be racist
Not with the racist comments and such….
White supremacy wouldn’t allow us
To be racist…
I won’t go off on the mic
Spewin hateful words
I’d tell the truth that triggers the guilt
Of every bone…white people
Don’t wanna go down to that rabbit hole…
Or any other races who are involved with the system..
Do our own people got involve with the other side of the chessboard?
Yes cos they are called house negroes and negropeans
They’re the ones who act like a white man towards the people
Who looks like them…which is sad….

I’m not racist,
I don’t have power…
But if I said somethin
That makes the audience feel uncomfortable
And I said somethin that hurts white supremacy
I would lose benefits….
Only if I were in that situation…
My mom told me not to post
Racism on social platforms
I didn’t listen…..
Plus a few people got my attention
Cos

Let me tell you somethin
Black people
Are oppressed by
The system, they’re victims….
When i watch someone
Hurtin a black person and got away with it
I get angry….
What if that was me, all of us feel that way….
So I decided to have a voice
For them, for us….
Things are afraid to say
Things we can’t think of….
I may not have a lot of experience
But I know what it looks like….
I know the power that causes
Black race a lot of heartache and pain…
It’s why I observe and listen
Readin understandin what it is and how it works…..

I didn’t make a speech
About it….
I didn’t discuss it in
Open meetings….
I just write and post
My poems online
For black people to read
Or not….if I hurt feelings
Oh well

People
Need
To
Learn the truth
And understand
Racism….

Cos racism is systemic abuse….
Yet racism doesn’t abuse white folks
At all….cos it’s their system…

And if I say all of that in the public eye,
I can lose all everythin….
It’s not fair….
I would lose the money
Would lose the weaver
I was told that I need it…..

Would I feel horrible, guilty or
Anythin like that?
Would I be proud?
If I were in that situation…
I don’t know…
I think I would honestly….

As a lot of black people
We don’t have enough integrity
To do what’s right for us…
We don’t have do the right thing mindset
For ourselves….
That’s the truth….
We don’t have it….
For us
It’s about the money…
It’s about the bag….

Do I have the heart the guts to stand out
In front of the crowd flowin a piece of
What’s really happenin to black people?
And be ok with losin all my services?
Cos

I’d go on the mic to share my soul and make black people think
Have my words unite them as one in some way…

And there are certain people who hear a poem like that
Might cut my funds…mom would make me say sorry….
Even though I tell the truth…even though I didn’t do anythin…

What about integrity? Do I have to lose it, too?

It’s why I don’t like livin in a world where the dominant society
Tells you you can’t write or say or do somethin against them
If you do, you would lose your bag….
Too many people
Especially black people will choose the bag….
Over integrity….

I don’t wanna be quiet
I don’t wanna get silent on black people….
Every time we say somethin factual
Oh it’s racist…it’s anti semitic

I wanna tell them to shut the fuck up…
The only reason why they got mad,
They’re on the yellow brick road of guilt truth…
Cos the truth is not so nice….
Tell me why history is in the present day…..
Why racism is there in our faces all the time…

For real it’s possible
I could lose everythin, the weaver, and services
If I could do the right thing for black people who
Need a voice, a motivation, even if my metaphors
Doesn’t shut the whole system…

Yet i give my people critical thinkin skills…
You know white supremacy doesn’t allow that…

I don’t think
My black poems
Are affected enough for me
to be in a situation anyway…
I was told I need my Medicaid,
My disability funds…

I wasn’t thinkin about plannin on it..

I just imagine
The thought of it
After discussin with my family
About don’t say shit

Does that include don’t write shit, either?

💯✊🏿©️Kai C. 12-13-23