Melanated People

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Takotsubo

I can break my own heart
All over again for you…
Piece by piece
I can shatter myself completely
If you just turn around
To see me
I can pass away
And then come back to life
If you could stand watchin me

I have loved you for so long
It does slaughter my chest…
People asked me why do i keep cryin
For you, cos I thought I could make you stay
I thought my tears will alarm you
But it never did….

I never stop and think
I’m hurtin myself
I’m stubborn….
Look at my soul
It’s been prayin for yours to stand near…
Yet I knew deep down you ain’t mine
I shuff that voice down
And I got this belief I do get what i want…
And what I want is to love me back…

I beg
I plead
I stalk
Just to have you change your mind
I want you to leave your girl
And fall in love with me instead….

you give me a strong no….
I cry
I cry harder
You walk away
Now

I got takotsubo
I got myself there
and I’m sick
I can’t survive without you

Why can’t I be with you?
Why can’t I love you?
Why can’t you love me?

Yet a man
Watches me
Givin you my all
Someone told me
He secretly loves me
But he’s not you….

Years later
I’m stuck on you
I didn’t give him a chance
I regret cos I let another woman
Take him…
You see I turn down the other men
For you
Still, you don’t acknowledge
I’m here….
You go with your wife
Holdin her hand….

Takotsubo
Has led me
To hospital
My heart is unwell….
Can’t move my bones
Cos I have carried my obsession
Of us for decades….
I let my Mr. Right slipped on by
I wanted you
I don’t wanna be alone
I ignored common sense
Consequences became my family

Didn’t
Learn my lesson
I didn’t wanna hear that
You never love me
You love me as a friend
That was all…
I couldn’t make you admire me
I couldn’t force you to choose me…

This is why I got
Takotsubo
I stay in the patient’s room
For a long time…
My therapist asked me
Gently
Why can’t I let go?
I didn’t answer
I just cry
I knew why…

I won’t admit
Not only to myself

I won’t heal til
You love me, too…
I will wait forever and ever
Til you come and say your apologies
From your vessel…
~
Is it a broken heart disability?
Some kind of Takotsubo?
Where you never understand
That somebody doesn’t unrequited love
Seriously?
You go on and on
Sayin he loves me
He never loves you in that way
You do know that,
But in your mind
It’s not your reality….
I’m not givin you a diagnosis
I’m speakin of observation
Cos people don’t like pain
So they will gaslight and manipulate others
To love them back….
Like a love spell…
However they use words and actions
To create different love bombs….
I feel like there’s somethin wrong with you
A deception on your part….

Why would you wanna waste your time and energy
On someone who doesn’t feel the same way?
There are too many people on earth
You forget that there are good men who want to date you
To court you to marry you….
Don’t give up cos it’s possible….
You just have to let your crush go for good…
I know you don’t wanna hear that
I don’t, either
Though it’s unhealthy you create fantasies and high expectations
On someone who rarely looks your way….
Stop being hopeful about that person who will hold your hand….

You don’t deserve Takotsubo….
You don’t need to break your heart over and over
For a man whose eyes are on his woman…
And why the fuck would you be a sidechick?
Are you that desperate?
Girl, bye….
It won’t work
He will never pick you….

You’re goin to get sick
Not just in your mind
But your body as well…
You end up at the hospital
And maybe wards
You can’t fathom that this man
Ain’t goin to be your Romeo forever….

Sorry but not sorry
Ya it’s harsh
This is the truth….
Nothin you can do

But to take care of yourself
Start lovin you
Start healin your inners
Movin on is the most healthiest thing you can do…

Maybe one day
You find Mr. Right
Who loves you too…
This time there’s no beggin
No Takotsubo at that…
💯♥️©️ Kai C. 5-15-26

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