Jesus Christ 

Jesus Christ 
Is in everyday vocabulary 
It’s in the tongue 
It’s sustained in the brains 
He’s still white 
My people keep praisin him 
They believe he’s comin back…

I’m quiet 
Respectfully 
Cos if I said somethin like 
Jesus Christ is not real 
They might go firm on me
Or go off….
Before I learned about white supremacy 
As a kid 
I heard churchfolk say he was comin back 
And that he rose from the dead….
That part scared me….
I thought that guy on the cross 
Creeps me out 
Cos what do you mean 
He came back to life…

I don’t know….
I made jokes about him…
As an adult 
I do question the Bible 
And I watched Christians 
Doin the opposite of the good….
And the reason I don’t believe in 
Jesus Christ 
It’s cos 
Christianity was forced upon black people
Durin slavery and colonialism…
It’s been passed down to generations 
Jesus Christ is trauma
Jesus Christ is a slave mentality 
And you may not like the truth 
I say with a full chest..
I don’t care….
To the black community 
I’m aware that Jesus Christ is positive 
And i still love my people no matter what 
You don’t have to agree with me….
You don’t have to google 
You don’t have to be my friend 
Cos I don’t agree with the religion 
I just wish the whole black race 
Realized that this belief  is conquered 
I wish they all knew that a white man 
Got us all fucked up….
If they learn about missionaries have tricked Africans 
To get their land…
I bet Jesus doesn’t want slaves
He wants peace and love around the world 
And he’s black
And his name is Yahweh 
I’m sure colonizers has erased his real life story 
Completely….
Hey, what do I know? 
What am I talkin about about, right?
Today is Sunday 
Everybody is at church 
Singin gospel 
Readin psalms 
That feelin good is heavy with tears
Somehow 
Some people go home and do the devil’s work…
It’s another reason why I don’t believe in….
Jesus Christ is also psychological effect 
Also abuse….
You may think I listen to hotep on YouTube 
And lookin at the social media…
But don’t forget I read too…
I came up with my own conclusion 
I observe 
I think critically 
I don’t wanna fall for the bull shit….
When I see my black people 
Say their ancestors are the demons 
And tell others you need Jesus 
Tellin them to go to him
It’s disturbin to me
Cos remember 
Colonizers snatched our spirituality away 
Our hands….
And that right there has turned into countless 
Trauma responses….
Not many knew that….
I’m not sayin 
You can’t be a Christian 
I’m sayin
You should think 
And wonder why 
Why these kinds of religions 
Are about control….
That’s all I see….
Control creates any different kinds of 
Misbehaviors….
It’s a world cult…
Jesus Christ 
Ya it’s another Stockholm Syndrome….
✊🏿💯©️ Kai C. 5-17-26

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A black man choosing to vent to you.......

You have no idea the compliment he just gave you.

Self discipline 

I don’t understand 
Why people can’t be 
Unfaithful to their partners 
To themselves…

Do we have to 
Use our private parts 
As brains, not the actual brain?

I don’t understand 
We see attractive humans 
All the time… for men 
They think it’s a part of 
Being a man…for women,
they want attention….
Those are the lame excuses 
To cheat….

You can’t blame your lover 
For your disloyalty….
You ain’t a healthy person 
Yourself to be a significant other…
It’s you….
You insecure 
You unhappy 
You immature 
You wanted to fuck all the time 
And your spouse won’t give it to you 
You didn’t have a sit downs conversation 
About the issue…
You just went and fuck another person 
You want fantasy like Disney 
Not the reality….

Nobody told you 
About self discipline 
Nobody told you 
That lust gets the best of you…
You let your temptation stretch 
And long so is your pride,
Now You lost the best thing that happened 
To you 
Cos part of it is your lack of self discipline….

I don’t know
Or you don’t give a damn 
But sex isn’t everythin….
There’s more to life than 
Feelin pleasure…
You never wanna take accountability 
You’re irresponsible 
Plus you refuse to wear condoms 
Or not even birth control 

No need to hear you say 
You’re lonely…
No you listen to that ego….
You chose to break someone’s heart
You chose to keep it in the dark 
You chose to cover up with your fibby stories…

You have 
No self discipline 
Whatsoever….
Why would you want your ex to come back and 
Stay?
So you can play
You think your former lover is stupid…
Past loves blocked you 

And you are all alone….
Empty 
How come you never went to therapy?
How come you never wanna be a better human being?
Do you regret it?
Or you don’t care?

💯©️Kai C. 5-17-26

☺️

Now you remember me

Now you remember me
You remember my name…
After all, it’s too late 
I’m not speakin to you…

You should have forget 
That I was in your life
Takin care of you 
Lovin you 
When your bad choices broke 
My heart….

I thought you loved me
It Was one sided…

Years 
Seasons 
Later 
I don’t have any sweet thoughts of 
You anymore….
But you on the other hand,
My silence brings the guilt out of you 
My absence brings all the regrets 

You tried to reach me 
I stay farther away 
And I’m in love with someone else….

You only remember me
Cos I found someone who loves me, too….
And you don’t like that very much….
You’re sayin to yourself 
That should have been me….
I did take care of her
I overheard you 
I murmur you blew it….
You said I can take you back 
And start over 
I roll off ignorin you 
And I’m in another man’s arms..
Yes he’s my husband…
You saw the ring
It makes you feel lonelier….

You follow 
With a sad face
Tryin to guilt trip me 
While I lean upon my man’s shoulder….

Now you remember me 
Cos I’m married and pregnant 
What’s your news sir?
Where’s your sidechick?
I thought she’s goin to be 
Your wife…

Yet I don’t care
My husband whisk me away 
You cry
Actually cry 
Finally realize 
You lost me
And no way you can get back to me….
Your game doesn’t work anymore….

💯©️Kai C. 5-17-26

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