REPAIR and STRENGTH

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Can I be honest?
With all these poems
About the truth of
Racism white supremacy,
I still get this fear of
Talkin about it in person
Or on virtual video chat
You would assume
That gets me into trouble
Or put me in my place….
I admit that
I’m a coon in a way
Cos I know for a fact
I will feel bad…
I shouldn’t…

People might persuade me
A bit of force on me
To apologize…
To give a quick apology

And never say a word again…

Like coward, like Nick Cannon coward…

I don’t wanna be in those situations
Especially dealin with death threats
If I become more famous in some way…
However

I don’t wanna be a coward…
Nick cannon coward…
I don’t wanna say sorry
I don’t wanna force to..

Have you noticed the truth
Has banned in a lot of places?
Truth is not welcomed
Not even in poetry community
Though it does invade personal spaces…

Whether we like it or not….

I’m not goin to lie
Cos I don’t wanna be in a situation
Where I bring race and say sorry
For bringin up race in person especially
When he or she reads poems about
Anti melanin systems that cause a lot of
Melaninated people pain, suffer, better term is
Oppression…

I don’t care if my accounts
Are taken down
If I get banned
But what if in harsh reality
The offline part
Someone might tell on me
I got to stand my ground
And say no
You can’t say sorry
For speakin what’s real
If I get yell at, get stern at, get firm at,

If you don’t like what I said
Don’t you dare to ask me to take it back…

That’s why we have internet
And books
And places
To do a whole lot of diggin…

This woke
Is beautiful
To me
Yet it does make
Ignorance kill the
Truth tellers off the earth
Or slaughter them off the people’s bones…

I was told
To be careful
I blocked people
Who said I spread hate
I was racist
I am not…

I learn
I learn
I learn
Everyday
I spread messages
Like beautiful wildfire….

Can I be honest
With you?
Real honest?
I am afraid of
Those situations like that
When it comes to talkin about race
In totally different person
Not everyone is goin to have a discussion
Or the person will overheard something
About this topic or anythin that leads to
That extreme..beyond extreme..

I don’t wanna be in that position
Where I feel bad and get upset
Don’t know what to do
Cos I said somethin true
Or I did the right thing…
No position where I have to
Write a motherfuckin apologetic poem
Or a letter saying I’m sorry I learned
My lesson we’re all one race all kinds of shit
I don’t even want spokespersons to speak for me
Sayin I apologize…

Hell no..
💯✊🏿 ©️ Kai C. 7-17-23

I have similar poems like this. I still think about this situation. These situations with the same scenarios can get a truth teller killed unfortunately. Nobody likes the truth. But what if the truth can save a life? I am afraid of someone making me a coward. I was told long ago not to post racism on social media because I would lose friends and something else might have happened. Honestly I don’t remember the rest. I didn’t listen as you can see. I feel like racism needs to be discussed more and more because it’s a problem. It’s always a problem. That’s why I help black people who read my poems only to educate them. And I want them to do their own research. My people are intelligent and I know they have common sense. I’m sure there are a lot of black poets who educate black people through poetry feel the same way I do. And it’s okay.

People at the top hate each other, talk ish for the world to see, and still collaborate and keep the power among themsleves.

Thissssssssssss!

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Happy Born Day and much Honor to a brother that exhibits leadership and Kingship here in this space every time. Thanks for standing by us and offering your brotherly protection. T.A.Z.