I forgive
I forgive 
You’re forgiven
You’re always forgiven 
That has been black people’s condition….
It has been that for decades 
Since 400 years or so…
After killings 
After slaughters 
After rapings 
Black people still forgive….
It bothers me, 
Why do we have to be a bigger person 
When we can hold these motherfuckers accountable?
Why do we have to hug these wicked racists?
Why do we have to listen to what Jesus says?
You know Jesus is what white folks gave us….
Look at our bleach white minds….
Look at how we became way too kind 
Way too compassionate to a white man
Who wants to genocide us….

Forgiveness is a sickness….
I won’t apologize for sayin this 
It’s the truth….
This is why black mental health 
Needs to be talked about out loud 
Our trauma needs to be addressed…
Cos slavery and colonialism has fucked our 
Minds up so is our souls…
Please study our history 
Go read how atrocities affect our brains constantly 
And how our dna carries ancestral pain….
I think it’s way of healin….
As a black race, 
We need to do a lot of self care 
For us….for each other…
We must learn dignity and respect 
For ourselves….
Cos forgiveness is weakenin our spines….
I think we were trained to listen to our hearts 
Way too much instead of our wisdom….
That’s the issue….racism is no accident…
Racism is done on purpose….
Oppression has us thinkin we’re not humans…
Does this sound like a mistake?
Not really….
Black people shouldn’t forgive 
White supremacy….black people 
Should have destroyed the system completely 
And mental illnesses has stopped us 
People stopped us….
Religion has stopped us….
✊🏿💯©️Kai C. 6-1-26

Lagos love 

I’m a village girl 
Waitin for a rich man 
Who can give me soft life…
I want luxury 
I want shiny gowns
Long hair wigs 
Would I ever get that?
To get a rich man 
Who marries me 
And live happily ever after….

Forget character 
I want money 
I wanna be a baddie 
I wanna be a sidechick 
Yet 

This isn’t Lagos love
Social media is another fantasy….
You heard someone says not all glitters are gold….
If you lived in that lifestyle, 
Would you forget where you came from?

I can say is 
If you come home 
And you dress wealthy 
You perform your care
You act like you’re better than the poor 
And this kind of reminds me of 
You went out into a new world 
Came back home as a colonizer 
As a foreign….
Like you’re no longer yourself anymore….
It’s like who are you?
How come you stop speakin your mother tongue? 
You spoke broken English like a white man….
Cos now you’re ashamed of your people….
Invitation to the table has gotten through your head….

It’s not Lagos love….
I heard it’s a big city….
More modernized….
Honestly 
I wonder 
Does the pattern happened? 
Cos respectfully 
In these conditions 
Africans are actin like Europeans….
I know it’s rude 
It’s uncalled for….
But hear me out 
Let me explain myself simpler as much as I can…
Colonization abused Africa….
Invaders abused the minds of melaninated nations….
This is why we observe trauma that has been passed down
Ever since Buckra stepped their filthy foot on your land….
That’s somethin to think about….
I don’t wanna sound like I disrespected my people 
From Africa, 
I’m speakin the truth….
And I love y’all….

Lagos love,
I hear stories 
Real 
And 
Unreal 
Based on experiences….
Lagos reminds me of New York City….
In my opinion 
Both places have somethin in common 
To fall in love 
To get a career 
Tall buildings 
Fancy cars 
If all of this can make you forget 
Where you came from 
Or the fact you are ashamed 
Of your family, 
Cos you made it 
Your standard is upgraded 
Next thing you might become 
A downfall 
Just cos of your success 
Your pride got bigger 
And it’s sad….

I never been to Lagos before 
I used to live in New York….
All this luxury all this money 
May not crack up to be….
Cos really, invitin to a white man’s table 
And money could really bring you happiness….
Unless you truly are delusional….
✊🏿💯❣️©️Kai C. 6-1-26

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